I lost my job

I was made redundant last month and resorted to eating my upset away. I haven't been going into the office as I was told I could work from home to complete my handover. As the gym is near work, I didn't want to waste petrol money driving 13 miles to the gym and then having to see the office on my way in. So, I stayed at home.

I used that time constructively though and secured another job and also launched my online store, www.batique.co.uk

I'm back to the gym and time to get this weight off!

I am having a horrible week

I've been in free fall this week and last week. Nothing but junk has passed my lips these last few days. My craving for burgers, pizza, cheese and all manor of calorie rich foods has been insane. I couldn't even manage to get to the gym until today and then undid all my work with a bacon and egg sandwich, quarter pounder with cheese, two burger king meals for dinner.

I could still fit more food in right now. I hate these binges and I don't even know why I do it to myself.  I've been stressed out with work so that's the major contributing factor, but normally I'm able to handle stress with exercise. This time, my medicine is food. I feel horrible and fat!

Weighed in at the gym and I was 75.8 kilos , 11st 9lbs , 166.76lbs. My clothes don't feel tight surprisingly, but I definitely need to try and get back on track for the rest of the week.

I'm having a very bad week

I have a strong need for savory foods this week - almost the same needs I have when I'm due on. I think restarting the pill a week later than I should have has affected my hormones. 

I was good on Monday but the last 3 days has been horrible. I've been cooking to try and avoid junk food, but I really want Pizza. I'll have one tonight and try and get back on track the rest of the week.

I did a YouTube video on my weight loss - when I was on a high note 

Start of the month

I'm 11st 6lbs today (163.2 lbs).  I only lost 4lbs last month, which is appalling, so this month, it's my mission to turn this around.

I have a wedding to go to on 24th November and I really want to look great, plus my fiance has a work Christmas dinner and I want to look hawt!

Unfortunately this week hasn't gotten off to a good start as I've only been to the gym once, so it means being very careful with my eating for the rest of the week.

Hips - 45
Waist - 31
Bust - 36

Lost more weight

Good start to the week so I'm going to maintain the momentum.


Last week I gained 5lbs and I'd been going to the gym! Life is not fair!!!!!

I've been going out quite a bit last week and eating out , plus take away twice, so that's the reason for the weight gain. I would have expected to stay the same weight but not gain this much! Arraaaghhh ! It's like one step forward and two steps back.

Anyway I'm trying to maintain my motivation but it's depressing.

Weighed myself today and I'm now 11st 9lbs (166.76) . Not entirely sure how I managed to loose 7lbs without really trying. I suppose the weight gain last week was temporary water weight?

Gained more weight

I weighed myself on Wednesday and I've gained 5lbs making me 12st 2lbs (170lbs)

I'v had a very bad week. On Monday and Tuesday I went to lunch with some work colleagues. My weakness is always eating out and I showed no restraint and eat lots of meat/chicken/carbs. I pulled it back on Wednesday and Thursday but Friday was just another blow out with a bacon and egg sandwich for breakfast and burger king for lunch.

Saturday was another bad day when we got VIP tickets to see Jesus Christ Superstar. Since the food was free, I couldn't resist a hotdog with fries.

Weighed myself today on the electronic scale and I was 12st so 2lbs down from Wednesday but on the manual scale I was 11st 10lbs, so I'm not sure which is accurate.

I'm trying to motivate myself to go to the gym, but it's near work and a part of me doesn't want to go all the way to work because it would feel like I was back at work already...

I am due on soon so I suppose a lot of my gluttony is hormonal but still, I need to learn to control myself better during this period.

Another 2lbs down but 2lbs up again : (

I got down to 165lbs =11st 8lbs  total weight loss of almost 13lbs.

I went away for a tipi/camping weekend last week and eat all weekend. Then only went to the gym twice and eat take out on Friday. So, not a good week.

Going to get back on track today

I went wedding dress shopping yesterday and I'm finding that "outlet stores" are not really outlet stores, but full price stores. I think they sell themselves as a discount wedding dress reseller just to lure me in.

I've decided I'll go to Ghana to get my dress rather than waste money on a £1,000 dress here.

Dropped another 3lbs

So far, I'm down 10lbs, but still stubbornly at 12st  at 11st 10lbs, but can't complain. People have noticed my weight loss and considering these are people who see me everyday and arguably shouldn't really notice, I'm pleased.

My measurements are:

Bust= 35inches
Waist=30
Hips=45.8

Weight 169 lbs

Not bad. I'm feeling good about myself again. Haven't experienced that in a long time.

Yoyoing

I'm still yoyoing between 7lbs. I gain 3, loose 3. Net result is - I'm still only 7lbs down. Sigh!
Lets see what next month brings eh?

I've started a weight loss series on Youtube so you can check that out as well

Down 7lbs

I've lost 7lbs so far in total since I started this round of weight loss.

Kinda annoyed at how little weight I've lost.

I had a very bad week last week - going out to eat and BBQs. I gained 4lbs during that week but I've managed to get that off this week. 

Looking at my food diary, it finally dawned on me that I can't eat more than 1200 calories if I want to loose weight, which cancels out take aways, which I like to indulge in.

I'm 170.2lbs (12st 2lbs) today on the electronic scale. On the manual, it was 11st 12lbs.

Measurements

Waist: 32inches
Bust: 37 inches
Hips: 46.2

Making very slow progress

This weight loss thing is such a hassle! I've managed to loose 3.7lbs so far this week.  Slow progress indeed. Last week, I lost 1lbs,  so far down 4.7lbs.

I have two scales in the house - a manual and electronic scale. The manual scale has me at 12st exactly. The electronic one has me 3lbs heavier at 12st 3lbs. I'm going with the electronic scale for accuracy but am using the manual one for feel good factor.

My clothes are feeling looser, but it's so much effort. Getting up every morning at 5.30 to go to gym.

The only thing keeping me going is the thought of being a fat bride and there's a woman who I worked with who has recently had a baby. The last time I saw her, she was skinnier now then she was before she got pregnant. I can't allow her to come back from maternity and see my fat behind. Sad I know, but we all have different motivations.

Measurements:

Hips=46 1/2
Waist=32
Bust=36.1

Weight 172.2lbs

Baileys is the devil!

I'm not a big alcohol drinker, but the one thing I will drink is Baileys Irish cream. I knew it had a lot of calories but considering I never drink more than half of an ice filled glass, I always assumed I couldn't be consuming more than 100 calories. Well the devil is a liar! That sucker has 327 calories for 100ml. I measured out 100ml of water today and realized its little more than one a ladle. A ladle I tell you! No wonder the weight is taking so long to come off, because I've been having a glass nearly every other night. And the only reason I have been drinking so much of it, is that it was on offer so I bought two. How I deeply regret it. So all this time, I've been under estimating my calories.

The lack of carbs in my diet has really made me want something sweet, so I've been going for the Baileys assuming it had no more than 100 calories.

I'm so ANNOYED! and I feel cheated. I could have eaten a whole meal for that amount of calories

Anyway, I went swimming today for the first time in probably 3 years, It was really enjoyable. I can't wait to go tomorrow. Shame I can't get a proper sense of calories lost but it was still relaxing.

The lesson is any sugary alcohol drinks are not good for weight loss

Progress report

I actually lost 3lbs but unfortunately put on another 1lb last week because I had such a bad weekend.

I've been struggling this week from lack of sugar as a result of the reduction in carbs. I'm having cereal for breakfast but the need for carbs is strong.

I'm still going to the gym and working out so I'm expecting some results this week if I can be on my best behaviour.

For some weird reason, my body temperature is always high so feeling hot has become a problem.

Lost 2lbs

I weighed in on Friday and lost 2lbs. Finally some progress. Unfortunately, I had a work lunch of steak and chips and finished off with cheese and crackers. It was downhill for the rest of the day. I completed the evening with a Chinese take away meal.  I have 50lbs to loose before my wedding in April so I have to be on this!

I've lost 1.8 inches round the waist, 1/2 in the hips and 1.3 inches in the bust area.

Yeah me!

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If I don't post, it means I fell off

Well, aint been around these parts much. That's because I fell off AGAIN. I'm now 12st 7lbs, so gained pretty much another 7lbs since the last post.

I don't know what is going on!

6 weeks ago, I joined the gym, because not only did my stomach resemble that of a 5 month pregnancy, but all my work trousers don't fit.

I haven't lost a single pound! ..well, I lost 2lbs, but for 6 weeks worth of gym, doesn't seem worth it.

Now, I confess, I haven't been the model dieter. 

In the first 3 weeks, I went to the gym 3 times a week, twice a day for an hour. I did cardio only, so tredmill, stepper and cross trainer. I would be dripping with sweat at the end. However, I would be so hungry, that as soon as I got home, I'd eat as many carbs as my belly would allow me to consume. I didn't even bother with the scales in those early days because I knew full well, I was replacing calories burned with more food. 

So, 3 weeks ago, I decided, I was going to make a change. I logged into the myfitnesspal ap, for the first time in 18 months and started to log my food. In the first week, I managed to keep my calories stable at just under 1500 calories per day. I weighed myself and lost nothing - or maybe if I did, I think it was only 1lb. Cue disappointment. I felt like I deserved better results considering how hard I'd worked that week!

The second week, I fell off again and despite going to the gym, I still managed to have take out 2 days of that week. 

I'm in my 3rd week and Monday was a good day, but Tuesday, I didn't go to the gym. I had a good breakfast of weatabix and a dollop of yogurt. Lunch, was a tuna, kidney bean, egg, cheese and sugar snap peas salad. However, after eating it, I had a sugar crash. Like, I'd eaten a loaf of white bread or something. I've decided that kidney beans are not my friend, and I probably could have dropped the cheese. In total, that "salad" was nearly 400 calories. Mid lunch, I had a sugar craving so had a 200 calorie chocolate bar. Leaving me with 288 calories for dinner. 

I packed my gym gear but at the end of the working day, just couldn't muster the energy to go to the gym. I went straight home and was starving by the time I got there. I went into free fall after that, cookies, left over Chinese from the weekend, and then my fiance cooked and I eat that too. 

This morning, I feel terrible. Eaters remorse.  I can't go to the gym as I have various meetings so desperately need to avoid falling into the trap of eating on the go. 

I'm posting my measurements for progress reports.

Bust 37 1/2
Waist 33 inches
Hips 47 1/2

Lets get this weight off! 

Week 2 south beach diet

I crashed and burned in week two of this diet. At day 9, I stood on the scale and still had only lost 2lbs, so it was pretty much over from there. I've been eating like all the food in the world is about to finish and sampling every carb known to man.

I'm in Ghana right now, and finding myself eating out a lot - and if you know anything about African food, you'll know it's carb rich. I'm feeling very fat and unattractive.

I have to do better when I get home. Maybe I'll try a calorie counting diet and also start cycling 3 days a week to work. Something has to give because I can't keep on putting on weight. I think I need to accept the weight will drop off very slowly and this is something I've struggled to reconcile with. I want instant results, but they are not possible.

Day 7 of my South Beach diet

Yesterday I decided to weigh myself - just out of curiosity even though I told myself to wait until the end of day 7 but couldn't wait.

I was only down 2lbs! 2lb! how? It was like the most bitter blow I've had in a while. I've been jogging 5x during the week and being disciplined and yet only 2lbs. 

Anyway, I knew it would be downhill from there. Got to work and by mid afternoon I needed some carbs. A colleague left some crackers on his desk and like the glutton I am, eat half the box. I tried to recover at lunch time and had a salad but failed by having a sweet chili dressing. Then for dinner I had lamb with bread. 

I've managed to recover today though, so hopefully by week 2 I'll see some more results.

I suppose 2lbs a week isn't too bad so if I can maintain that level, then I should be down 16lbs by my finance's brother's wedding. 

Day 5 South Beach diet

It's day 5 of the South Beach diet. The headaches have passed and I've been drinking lots of water and herbal teas. I never ever had a sweet tooth, never really eat desserts, biscuits etc...I occasionally eat ice-cream but my vice has always been rice, bread and pasta. Now that I can't eat any of those, I have a sudden sweet tooth. As a result, I've been making low carb cheese cake, which I've loved.

I've had some wobbles along the way. I eat a spoon full of rice yesterday, had ketchup one day on my omelet.

Today was my first day back at work and I  stupidly did not organise myself very well.
I packed up some cheesecake and some lamb and veggies from the night before. When I got to work, I was hungry and only had the cheesecake so wolfed that down. My 10am, I was hungry again so rushed to the shop to get some cheese and a small pack of almonds. Unfortunately I eat the whole pack of almonds (450 calories) two plain yogurts, one cracker and cheese. Dinner was lamb and veggies. For some reason I was still unsatisfied and eat chicken and spinach. Now I'm stuffed. Lesson to self, eat slowly!

Energy wise, I've been okay. The first 3 days were tough and I have been jogging every day except for today.

I suppose one of the hard things about this diet is working in an office. I don't really eat breakfast immediately upon waking up, so breakfast of an omelet is hard to eat at work. Lunch has to be some sort of protien and I can't eat cold food so I have to warm up my food in order to eat it. I may try a chicken salad tomorrow.

This diet requires a lot of preparation and is expensive to sustain but I'll keep plugging away.

First day with the South Beach diet

I haven't posted for a while because I have completely fallen off the wagon. I mean like completely. I was literally eating anywhere between 2 and 5,000 calories a day. Last week when I put on clothes that I'd bought to get me through my "fat period" they were too tight. I was so upset! It didn't stop me eating more food though. Thursday was my worst day and it was sort of my last binge before I decided to do something about my increased weight gain.

I'm 12st 5lbs ! My fiance's brother is getting married in June and I do not want to be the fat future daughter in law. I have to shift this weight!

Yesterday I started the south beach diet. Aside from the headache, and a little bit of insomnia I made it through the first day.

Week 5 check in

I didn't check in last week because I'm pretty sure I had a bad week. In fact, I'm sure I did. No point in posting what I eat, needless to say it was a lot of junk and no exercise.
This week is another bad week, more junk, but on the upside I did manage to go jogging Wednesday and Thursday and I'm building up my stamina. On the downside, I'm still at 12 st 2lbs.

Week 3 check in

I was really good last week. I even managed to go jogging 3 times last week , however, Friday and Saturday were bad days for me. Friday, I eat breakfast as normal then I had a terrible graving for carbs. I made pasta for lunch, but I wanted to eat it at 10am! less than 2 hours after breakfast! Anyway, had my lunch and luckily I was on half day so I was able to eat dinner early. Unfortunately I was also catching up with a girl friend and we went to eat burgers and I couldn't resist some hand cut chips. I have to confess the burger was horrid, but it was bread! which I didn't realise I missed until then. 

Saturday was even worse. I work up and eat the pasta lunch I made the night before for breakfast at 7am!!! I went back to sleep and went for a jog. I managed to be good for the rest of the day but unfortunately, late in the evening, I needed Pizza.

Anyway, Sunday was a good day, so I hope I can maintain it for the rest of the week. No weight check yet. 

Start of a new week

Today my diet was as follows:

Breakfast

Two boiled eggs

Mid Morning

Rice & buckwheat porrage mixed with water and goats milk yogurt

Lunch

Prawn salad with two boiled eggs, a bit too much caesar dressing

A small hand full of nuts

Dinner

Pork & peas hotpot

End of week

So, I ended the week by going to the cinema and eating popcorn and Doritos, washed down with a fanta slushi on Sunday. I'm peed off at myself because I was really good in the morning!

I did manage to go jogging on both Saturday and Sunday.

Food combining

I started the food combining diet today. At the beginning of the year, I gave up cola ( only drank diet) coffee and tea.

Day 1

I had lemon juice with warm water when I woke up

30 minutes of jogging ( got a shin splint so hindered my jogging)

Breakfast - Half a melon

Lunch - Stir fry brown rice with bell peppers and onions

Dinner - pork stir fry with veg. It smelled and looked so good I had to take a photo.

This week is not going well at all!

I've been eating practically every hour this week and feel bloated. I'm due and my breasts feel like two huge heavy melons on my chest. They hurt so bad. Yesterday, I tried to have just chicken breasts for dinner but had to have some carbs. I had pasta and chicken breast plus my beloved shito.

Today, I had a good day up until dinner time. I was feeling really terrible, just had a heavy feeling in my head and needed to sleep. On the way home I got my chinese food craving so had to stop by for a take away. Eat that, feel awful as I always do after chinese food and now I'm wide awake as I always am after eating their MSG, salt overloaded food. Arraaaghh, I'm so mad at myself! Of course I've put on the 2lbs I lost last week. I'll force myself to go jogging this weekend and start my food combining diet.

Cravings

I had a terrible day today. It's 2 1/2 weeks until mother nature's visit and my customary cravings have started. Toast for breakfast wasn't too bad. Mid morning, a banana. A small handful of nuts to snack on. Ham Sandwich for lunch with low fat yogurt. A woman I work with asked me if I wanted to go for walk to the local supermarket. Well, it was downhill from there.

I eat two small chicken breast fillets. Fried of course. Similar to those chicken breast fillets you get in KFC

Next nuts

A small naked cocoa bar

more nuts

Dinner - a small poached chicken breast fillet with peas. That didn't satisfy me 'cause I needed some carbs. I found brown rice chicken stir-fry I froze in the freezer and eat that.

Tomorrow, I have a dinner with my CEO. Not looking forward to that at all.

Checking in week 2

So, last week wasn't a great start to the week. I finished off the week on Sunday with a pretty terrible diet. Lots of brie and white bread, a glass of red wine tossed in for good measure and to top it off, I had a shish kebab with all the trimmings. I can still taste it now and it was goooooood.

I did manage to go jogging twice last week, and to shed 2lbs.

Not bad.

Anyway, today I arrived late at work, (well late for me, I'm usually in my 7.30-8am) and forgot to have breakfast. By about 10.30 I was hungry so made a trip to the local super market. Bad idea, the worst thing you can do is go to a food establishment when hungry because my stomach rules my head and I pick up everything bad I can think of to put in the basket.

However, today, I did okay in terms of resisting the bad and went with

- 2 bananas

- 1 150g pack of pistachios

- 1 small pot of Greek yogurt

- 1 medium pack of sushi

- 1 Trek coca bar brownie (12g protein, no sugar and fat free)

- 1 small bottle of Tropicana fruit juice

Seems okay right, well, not really. I eat everything minus 1 banana all through out the day. It felt like I eat every hour, which in reality, I did. Anyway, I'm full but not satisfied.

I need pasta or rice which I'm desperately trying to resist.

I'll make a protein dinner tonight. I've got plenty of chicken breast. I need to incorporate more fish into my diet. Problem is, it makes the flat stink!

Slapping my wrists

So, I was supposed to start my diet on Monday and go for a jog. I didn't. Monday was a strange day, I was healthy at work. Had two slices of toast for breakfast, a sandwich, fruit and yogurt for lunch, came home and I think I pretty much eat everything in the house. Not sure why, but I did.

Tuesday was a little better, again I was disciplined and had chicken breast with veg and two boiled eggs for dinner.

Today, again was a good day with a repeat of yesterday and I went for a jog after work. My stamina is shot to pieces, so it was more walk/jogging. No worries, plenty of time to get my fitness up. I was also thinking about my wedding. I've decided that I won't be wearing a traditional white dress. I suddenly got a vision of a yellow dress with yellow roses around the bust with some kente cloth woven in some how. I'm heading to Ghana in March to check out venues etc.

I had some gorgeous clothes made in Ghana when I was there and they are a little tight. It's motivated me to get slimmer

A girl at work mentioned to me the separation diet. The basic premise is to not combine carbs and protein. I have tried it in the past and it does work. I don't know if I could give up pasta or bread so the great thing about this is I can eat carbs. Yeah! I'll report back on progress.

A repeat of last year's resolution....

So, I ended last year at a whopping 12st 4lbs. I'm so big now that my friends have been asking if I'm pregnant. My breasts are huge and unfortunately so is my stomach. My grand ma said she was certain I was pregnant. I've always had a small waist so I think the added belly has been a big surprise to every one.

I hate how fat I am and yet at the start of the year, I was still in holiday mode and carried on eating as I had done the year before.

Tomorrow I start on my diet push. I've decided to keep my carb intake down and will only eat carbs for breakfast and lunch. Dinner will be grilled chicken or fish with veg. As horrid as this sounds, I'm desperate to finish the ice cream in the freezer. May as well since I'm not going to eat it again for the force able future. I'm not a big ice cream eater. I normally only buy it when it's on offer. Screw it, I'm going for it and I'll deal with the guilt tomorrow by jogging.